Fuanni's Life.

Dear God,

2012-01-30T07:08:00.001+08:00

Please please please give me the strength to get through this
InsyaAllah

Would be perfect.

2012-01-29T17:27:00.001+08:00

You.

Me.

Holding hands.

Strolling.

Beach.

I am back.

2012-01-27T15:08:00.004+08:00

Back at work.

After a week off from work, i got bombarded with tons of lab requests.
Yay me.

Its's Friday, yay.

Dont be sad.

2012-01-24T01:07:00.001+08:00

La tahzan, Innallaha ma'ana.

Kernamu.

2012-01-22T00:53:00.001+08:00

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu

Realisation.

2012-01-20T17:54:00.001+08:00

I'm quite a pessimist, aren't i?

Salam Jumaat.

2012-01-20T14:51:00.002+08:00

Apparently i over reacted.

The weather's so cooling right now.
The kids are playing in the rain outside, i wish i could be doing that too.
I'm trying to get some of this biochem stuff into my head, but the minute i start reading my notes i start yawning too.
So, i end up continuing with season 6.
Woohoo!

Last night was real fun.
Plain old conversations that do not actually matter, yet still essential.
Simple pleasures of life.

I know.

2012-01-20T11:12:00.002+08:00

I dunno what to think.
I dunno what to feel right now.
I feel numb, i suppose.
In a little of a daze too.

Of life.

2012-01-18T14:59:00.003+08:00

Life doesn't travel in perfectly straight lines. It moves more like a
winding river. More often than not, you can only see to the next bend, and only when you reach that next turn can you see more.

Ironic.

2012-01-18T11:05:00.003+08:00

Need. Beach.

2012-01-17T15:04:00.006+08:00

So sleepy.

So tired.

I wanna be here now please.

Cos boy, you're the one that i want.

2012-01-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

Loads of fun yesterday.
I love it so so much.
Unplanned plans are much loved.

Well well well~

2012-01-11T14:20:00.003+08:00

I havent been writing properly here in awhile.

Was sick last week, that was 2 days off from work.
Spent my weekends mostly resting at home.

Today's mid-weeek and this week has been kinda tiring.
Maybe cos the work is piling up after the past few months of slacking.
School was a bummer too, monday's class was digusting.
But lessons are all over now, only left with the 2 upcoming exams.

Thank goodness for tomorrow, really.

To you.

2012-01-10T10:12:00.002+08:00

I want a getaway.
I need one, for that matter.

Let's go jom....

Diagnosed.

2012-01-02T00:04:00.001+08:00

My personal doctor recommends sleep and lots of plain water.
So, sleep it is then.
Goodnight all.
;)

Not even you.

2011-12-31T11:22:00.001+08:00

Still staring into space.
Recalling the nightmare i had 9 hours ago.
Made me wake up terrified and in tears.
No one understands.

Byebye 2011.

2011-12-29T14:15:00.004+08:00

It's that time of the year.
Just checked my archives, apparently i've been doing this since Lena first started.
So this year's going to be no different.
A round-up of my 2011.

Let me see..
2011 saw me:
~ attending friends' weddings
~ continuing my so-called escapades with friends
~ watching my first (and only) midnight movie
~ taking a risk and embarking on a new journey with him
~ experiencing a sleepover
~ getting braided again
~ cooking (haha)
~ losing people who used to be close to me
~ turned as legal as any person can be; legally 21 that is
~ getting my first ever bonus (after successfully staying with the same job for a whole year)
~ becoming rihanna (hahahaha ok, inside joke)

So, 2011. Thank you for giving me a chance to fall in love proper this time, to be someone's first choice after always been put second.
For introducing me to the world out there.
It wasn't as wild as 2010 had been, and no major drastic haircuts this year.
But you've taught me well.

And 2012, i'll see you soon insyaAllah.

Sigh.

2011-12-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

Head is aching, and heart is breaking.

Please.

2011-12-27T08:43:00.001+08:00

I want a vacation.
Badly.

2011-12-26T23:49:00.001+08:00

Don't let your insecurities take over you fufu. Please don't.

It's Sunday, I'm in love.

2011-12-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

Date with the bf yesterday.
So glad we could finally find time to squeeze a date in.
But too bad our day started later than what i intended cos the boy kept delaying and even reached late.
Hmmph.
Nevertheless, me being me.
For some weird reason, I just can't stay angry with him for long.

I had fun, walking in town with no direction.
Just walking and strolling with him by my side, I could do that all the time and never get sick of it.
We started off with a late lunch at PS, then walked till we reached taka.
We attacked kino of course, one of his fav spots and mine too.
Apparently we spent about 2 hours there, and we left with a couple new comics for him and a first one for me.
Thankyou you for my first comic.
Grabbed some CDs, and we left for 5 with the oh so sedap double choc frappe.

Thank you Love for the beautiful Sunday.

Just because.

2011-12-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

Hari Keduabelas.

2011-12-23T14:11:00.001+08:00

4 yesterday, cos you got back.

Love love love.

Hari Kesebelas.

2011-12-22T10:32:00.002+08:00

11 days without you.
It has been surprisingly more difficult than I thought it would be.

A few days more to go.
I'm looking forward to seeing you.
I miss you.

Hari Kesepuluh.

2011-12-21T10:13:00.000+08:00

Midweek is here, Alhamdulillah.
Last week was sleepy week, but i dont know why this week seems to be tired week.

Anyway, bro got his first choice. Alhamdulillah.
Hope he'll be happy & do well for 4 years there.

I keep google-ing getaway ideas.
Probably won't be able to go for any anytime soon, but oh well.
It's okay to dream isn't it.

My list of getaway places is getting longer.
Let's go?

Hari Kesembilan.

2011-12-20T11:19:00.002+08:00

One yesterday.

Felt weird going to bed without hearing from you first.

This is ridiculous and i never thought i would turn into a girl like this.
But now that you're not around, i feel somewhat lost and like a loner.
I mean yeah, i'm not exactly the most social person in the planet but i used to have at least a friend (or two?) whom i was on-a-daily-basis close kinda thing.
I dont have any now, and that took me quite awhile to figure out.
I havent been making the same effort I used to with my friends.
So I guess everyone kinda gave up on me huh.
Either that or i just haven't realised that i've been this much of an antisocial until now.

Hmm, guess this can go under #thingsiponderabout

Hari Kelapan.

2011-12-19T17:38:00.001+08:00

Today, the number 8 is significant for another reason too.

One yesterday.

As I was under the rain last night, feeling the raindrops on my face. I was wondering if you, were under the rain, feeling the same raindrops too.

Take care of yourself..

Hari Ketujuh.

2011-12-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

I'm worried about you, but there's nothing i can do except pray that nothing's wrong.

Hari Keenam.

2011-12-17T13:42:00.001+08:00

Waiting for class to start, so i thought i'll blog something out to keep up with the daily posts for you.

Oh, 3 yesterday and i love it.

I probably mumbled for quite a bit but i dont care. Haha.

So half of Sat has passed, and the other half gonna be spent here in school and later at home. Lepak Sat since sissy's working anw.

Ily.

Hari Kelima.

2011-12-16T10:24:00.002+08:00

I feel like screaming right now.
I miss you so much.

Hari Keempat.

2011-12-15T13:40:00.001+08:00

3 yesterday~
Sissy was disturbing me the whole night about you.
Hehehe.

Oh, i baked red velvet cupcakes yesterday.
Gonna modify the recipe a little next time.
And will let you try soon.

Good luck!

Hari Ketiga.

2011-12-14T14:53:00.001+08:00

Managed to get one yesterday.

Went to bed with a smile on my face.

This is random, but thank you for letting me experience one of the simple pleasures life has to offer.

Something i never fully understood until it was with you.

http://free-extras.com/images/holding_hands-1429.htm

Sigh.

2011-12-13T14:18:00.002+08:00

Have been waiting since 10am, but to no avail.
:(

Hari Kedua.

2011-12-13T11:38:00.001+08:00

There were 4 yesterday. I likee.

We're horrible at expressing ourselves.
But when we argue, i guess that's one of the ways we express our care.
Ily.

Hari Pertama.

2011-12-12T11:39:00.001+08:00

I came up with the idea of writing a so-called 'diary' here in Lena for you.
Well, it's more of the things i want to tell you.
Which i might not get to say.

Planning to make it a daily thing but let's just see how it goes shall we?

So, it's day one today~
Spending time with you like that this past week was such a luxury.
Something i could really get used to and yet something we probably couldn't afford to do under normal circumstances.
This weekend was like an added bonus.
Something unexpected yet enjoyable.
Thank you for welcoming me into your world, love.

Dictionary please.

2011-12-10T15:34:00.001+08:00

What do you call family who do not speak to each other?

You.

2011-12-09T16:24:00.001+08:00

Not feeling so good today.
Gonna head home and rest.
Gloomy weather right now.

Waiting for noon tomorrow.

18 days leh..

2011-12-07T21:34:00.001+08:00

Blogging this while he's busy with his game.
And my Sims is out of energy, so i've got nothing else to do.

Hi, I'm 21!

2011-12-02T14:19:00.001+08:00

This is me typing.
Yes, the 21 years 1 day 8 hours old me.

So i'm 21.
I feel like i should feel something different now.
Like this number should change a part of me somehow.
But it doesnt, everything still feels the same as it was.

I had another great day yesterday, filled with loads of good food and lots of walking too.
I feel tired, but hey it's not every year you turn 21 right?

Hearing your voice when i came back earlier today made me feel like i was home.

Thank you so much.

2011-11-30T15:10:00.001+08:00

Pretty awesome day yesterday.
All thanks to you.

From the 'something' that i waited more than a year for, the sacrifices made, the surprises, the gifts, the time spent with you.
Everything was unexpected and just perfect.

Thank you thank you so much.
I love you.

Puteri Negeri Cina

2011-11-28T16:48:00.001+08:00

Once upon a time we fell apart
You hold it in your hands
The two halves of my heart
Ohhhhh, ohhhhh

The big 2-1!

2011-11-28T16:39:00.001+08:00

Belated wish for the woman here~
Happy twenty-first!

Pretty things in life.

2011-11-25T15:46:00.001+08:00

It's Fridayyyyy!
Yay yay weekends are here.
Friday is, no doubt my favourite day of the week.
And i'm guessing this applies for the rest of the 5-day workweek people too.

Let's see..
What was interesting this week.

Oh i took a ride up the Flyer again.
This time in the daylight. View was pretty good.

My baby brother received his PSLE results.
I wouldn't say it's terribly awesome, but syukur Alhamdulillah..

I received good news about a friend overseas.
(And she's probably going to be reading this, so Hello!)

And i did another something for the second time.
Those who have seen me around would know, so yeahh.

So to end this off, i'd like to leave you guys with my favourite thing.
Have a great weekend yo!

Pretty sunflowers makes me happy.

Lalalalala~

2011-11-24T16:51:00.001+08:00

Hi everybody,

Kita bagai kumbang dan bunga
Hatiku pasti hatimu jua

Ok bye.

p.s congratulations darling!

2011-11-23T13:10:00.001+08:00

Annoyingggggggggg.

What really happened?

2011-11-21T14:45:00.001+08:00

I used to be motivated.
I used to work hard to get good grades.
I used to want to do my assignments because i wanna do it well.
I used to want to gain all that knowledge my teachers had to offer.
I used to want to do my job well, to the best of my ability.
I used to want more.

But now, i...
don't.
I do my assignments because i have to.
I go to work everyday because i have to.
I attend lectures because i have to.
I study for exams not to excel, but to scrape through.
Why?
What happened to me?

I lost that drive somewhat.
I've become this lazy, complacent person.
Who's easily acceptive of everything given to me.
Till i haven't been working hard for something, anything that i really want.

Ouchie ouch.

2011-11-21T11:59:00.001+08:00

The side of my head is feeling the tightness already.
Oh man, this time the guy did it really tight.

GA.GA

2011-11-20T14:57:00.001+08:00

I've been watching GA.
Just started but i'm at season 3 now.
I just love how intense Christina and Preston's love is for each other.
They love and care for each other so much, and yet both of them have egos the size of russia or something.
They stay silent, but yet she still stays by him.
All the time.

That is just plain awesomeness.

Sad.

2011-11-20T12:04:00.001+08:00

I feel unloved, chucked aside and neglected.

Crayfish.

2011-11-16T16:10:00.001+08:00

I've got this urge to write, and yet i dont know what to write.
I feel uneasy, like there's something wrong somewhere.
The only wrong thing i know going on is me not studying right now.
Or for the past hours of the day for that matter.

Hoping that the next 45 minutes passes fast so i can get home.
I need to figure out a way to reduce my daydreaming/stoning sessions.
The more i actually need to do something, the more easily distracted i get.

Oh, and that cikgu planted some thoughts into my head yesterday.
Something i'm actually contemplating right now.
Who knows? I just might end up going for that idea afterall.

For now, i'm using the crayfish pasta and chocolate crunch as my excuse(s) for being oh-so-lazy today.

Right next to you.

2011-11-16T10:39:00.001+08:00

Adorably cute.

Confessions of a "Peng-gaji buta" (??)

2011-11-14T16:14:00.003+08:00

I got myself stuck to another game.
I refuse to use the term "addicted" just cos i dont wanna believe so.
Serves me right for opening up that game again. Tsk.

My worklife is revolving around GA, sims and the flipping of my notes.
Was supposed to be in a full day workshop today (and tmr for that matter).
But today's got cancelled, so it'll just be a one day thing tmr.
I wasnt prepared to have free time so i didnt exactly have the mood to study, yet.
That's my excuse, and i'm standing by it.

Two more working days for the week, and i'll be off for my leave.

I've got the urge to try the RVC from Starbucks cos i didnt get to bake the cupcake ones yesterday.

Do you remember?

2011-11-11T14:54:00.000+08:00

Our 6am faces.
Pink, do you remember?

Hati ini.

2011-11-08T14:48:00.001+08:00

Late night suppers.
Arcades.
Holding hands.
You.

Running.

2011-11-08T11:18:00.002+08:00

Out of words, that is.

I'm starting to wonder who comes to this blog.
There are times when i want to write some more private stuff in here.
Just cos i've no one to talk to about things anymore.
But i still want my privacy though.

Dear Lena.

2011-11-06T14:45:00.002+08:00

So Ayah's in one of his PMS moods.

And refuses to siap for us to go visiting.

Everyone's still doing their own thing at home, like its just any other Sunday.

Right when i needed my family to be strong for me, this just had to happen.

True story.

2011-11-04T16:13:00.002+08:00

All I know is that when you get older, you’re cluttered with these static friendships and it becomes harder to find that daytime friend, to find that person you can actually depend on.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/what-does-the-word-friend-even-mean-anymore/#.TrKFkXqyigc.facebook

Winkwink __

2011-11-04T14:28:00.004+08:00

Put two like-minded person together.
Sum it up with 2 different work timings.
One of which is shift hours.
And multiply that with part time school.
And what do you get?

Barely a decent conversation in 3 days.
You know i know eh.

Love you Lena.

2011-11-03T09:26:00.002+08:00

That probably wasn't a fair statement.

I've abandoned my body long before it betrayed me.

So to speak.

Which made me realised this is my 2nd post for the day, and its still 9.30am.

I've missed blogging like this; at random times.

Been tweeting and abandoning Lena.

I'm back to my Lena.

Help please.

2011-11-03T08:55:00.003+08:00

So many things i need to do.

And i feel as if my body's betraying me.

Gonna pop in those Vit C tablets, hopef something's gonna feel better.

Them, they and us.

2011-11-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

It is as if we were childhood friends.
Once, we were so close we swam like a school of fish.
But alas time drifted us apart.
And now we're all solo.

Colours unite.

2011-11-02T16:31:00.001+08:00

Pink, Blue, Black, Red, Yellow.

You know who you are.

Rainy day rainy day.

2011-11-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

I wanna stay where there's no high buildings, no skyscrapers blocking the sky.

So i can look at the clouds, the sun and the moon as much as I want to.

For however long i want to.

Nak please.

2011-10-31T13:28:00.002+08:00

Anyone wants to buy me this (black version preferably), feel free and don't be shy!
:)

Of us Sc people.

2011-10-31T13:19:00.003+08:00

We're the sloppy ones.
We dress every morning in our worst clothes and footwear.
Just so we won't destroy our pretty clothes with the disgusting stuff we have to handle everyday at work.
We are the new breed.
We dress like we're going to the market.
We even bring extra set of clothes if we have after work plans.
We feel very under-dressed amongst the corporate office people.
And so, we have lesser self confidence when we're out there in our work clothes in public.
But, when we're at work, we are so sure of ourselves, it's practically disgusting.
Even the office people above us are afraid of us.
Muahahaha.

Pandora, i'm in lovee~

2011-10-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

Oh man, i hate to be so materialistic and what not.

Oh but heck it, i'm a girl.

I want pretty things too.

I'm a little materialistic, so what? Sue me then!

Rindu.

2011-10-25T15:03:00.003+08:00

I miss you so much.
But there always seem to be no time.
I just want to sit beside you and talk about Sims or some other thing.
Walk with no destination.
Have a meal with you.

I'm sorry if i'm making people who are reading this puke or something.
If i were you guys, i'd probably puke too.
But this time, i feel this way.
And to you, if you're reading this; hello love.

Be thankful.

2011-10-24T17:54:00.001+08:00

I realised that as i get older, i'm wanting more and more materialistic stuff.
Bags, shoes, clothes, watches, jewelleries, bikes, cameras. Etc etc.

Oh, and getting rejected is no fun.

Loser.

2011-10-23T23:50:00.002+08:00

I wish I had the guts.

Wish I had the courage.

But deep down, I know I'm too much of a coward.

Sayang.

2011-10-23T18:30:00.001+08:00

I love how we can just go nowhere and still have fun by ourselves.
In our own little world.

Vendredi oui!

2011-10-21T12:36:00.002+08:00

It's Fridayyyyyy!
Yayyyyy!

Sigh, so sleepy or what.
Raining heavily here in TPY.
Yes, i'm back here after spending the past 4 days in the north east side.
Went upstairs to my lab earlier, and ohmygosh.
I wanted to clean something up.
But i just didnt know where to start.
Will think abt that on Mon.

Wkends prob gonna be spent doing my report.
Due on Mon but I havent start a thing.
Should start now, and yes i will.

Like a love song baybeh~
Ciao people, have a great wkend!

Its's gonna be legen......wait for it....dary!

2011-10-20T15:35:00.001+08:00

Love them!

Paradise.

2011-10-19T15:19:00.001+08:00

When she was just a girl

She expected the world

But it flew away from her reach

And the bullets catch in her teeth

Life goes on, it gets so heavy

The wheel breaks the butterfly

Every tear a waterfall

In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes

In the night the stormy night away she'd fly

This is awesome stuff.

Missed.

2011-10-17T15:39:00.002+08:00

I miss Mcdonalds suppers.

I miss random dinner dates before school.

I miss monthly Mustafa visits.

Iwannagohomeplease.

2011-10-14T14:54:00.002+08:00

Earlier post was at 1023h.

I'm feeling so restless and rimas in the staff room.
Haiyah as much as i like/am okay with the idea of doing admin or data entry work, i dont feel comfortable here at all.
Whenever i'm done with my work, i get all rimas (restless) sitting here.
I go to fb, tumblr and blogger.
But i feel guilty doing so, and i keep looking around to see if boss was walking in.
But if i'm all caught up with work, time pasts faster and i dont feel that anymore.

1 and a half hour more to go..

Foo Fighters!

2011-10-14T10:23:00.003+08:00

I wanna get out of my countryyyy.
The travel itch is back in me.
I wanna wanna wanna go somewhere.

And i realised now that there are more beach holiday spots around the region than what i originally thought.
If only budget was not an issue..
How nice would that be.
Nikoi island looks really pretty.

Stupid.

2011-10-12T09:10:00.004+08:00

I just wanna be treated like i'm a girl.
I have feelings too you know.

How come the rest of the world gets that kind of treatment and i get crap.

Stupidity.

2011-10-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

This is one of those times when i dont know exactly what to write here.
I've typed a few lines, and i deleted it all away.
I have something in my drafts, something i decided not to publish.
I miss travelling.

I miss the feeling of being in a new hotel, bathing in a strange bathroom, sleeping on a strange bed, planning the day out.
I cant wait to complete my studies.
So then i'll have the freedom and the cash hopefully, to fulfill my no.1 goal.
Saraburi and Lop Buri.

Hi nazreen, i miss you.
And i know i already answered your direct qn yest.
But, let me answer that again.
Yes, i am.

Cos they make me smile.

Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit,

2011-10-10T14:23:00.006+08:00

I decided today that i cannot survive an admin job.
I'll either fall asleep or yawn the whole time i'm awake.

So bored right now.

Friday~

2011-10-07T14:54:00.002+08:00

Day 1 in the staff room.
So far okay lah i guess.
Just that it's cold and i'm sitting right under the aircon vent.

Have been doing some admin work for the dept.
I finished that at about past noon-ish.
I've played with tumblr.
I read my blog archives.
I kept refreshing fb.
I read today's newspapers.
I even read through my emails.
In other words, i got bored.

Gotta remind myself to bring a jacket next week.
Since i have to stay here until the 2oth.
Oh well, at least the internet's much faster here.

Ok, i'm gonna look for something to do until i knock off.
Enjoy your weekends everyone.

Favourite!

2011-10-06T14:11:00.001+08:00

tuai padi antara masak
esok jgn layu layuan
intai kami antara nampak
esok jangan rindu-rinduan

anak cina pasang lukah
lukah dipasang di tanjung jati
di dalam hati tidak ku lupa
sebagai rambut bersimpul mati

batang selasih permainan budak
daun selasih dimakan kuda
bercerai kasih talak tiada
seribu tahun kembali juga

burung merpati terbang seribu
hinggap seekor ditengah laman
hendak mati dihujung kuku
hendak berkubur di tapak tangan

kalau tuan mudek ke hulu
carikan saya bunga kemboja
kalau tuan mati dahulu
nantikan saya di pintu syurga

Love Allahyarham Nordin Ahmad's voice.

Feelings 101.

2011-10-05T09:20:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously not in the mood to study right now.
Have a quiz later, and i dont have the appetite to read anything there.
Luckily i did most of my reading yest, so it might not be so bad afterall.

Hopefully i'll open the notes up later.

Waddup.

2011-10-03T16:02:00.003+08:00

Just a heads-up that this post is totally redundant and the only reason you'll want to continue reading this is cos you're too bored.

Time for some random thoughts.

I was thinking of what to blog about.
I still havent figured it out yet.
So this is just to get my thoughts flowing.

Oh yeah, someone asked me to be his gf.
Trying to be funny or what.

I'm really bored right now.
I spent the past 8 hours rotating btw the comp, my bk, my piece of lab notes and my phone.

Right now xinmsn is making me frustrated cos the live radio refuses to load.

It's less than 2 months to my birthday.
No i dont have a countdown to my bday, but i just happened to notice that.

I feel like walking right now.
That is why i am going to where i am going aft work later.

It's approx 45 mins to 5pm.

They're constructing bbq pits in the sch.
Do not ask me why.

I paused my HIMYM marathon cos i didnt want that season to end just yet.

I'm not making much sense.
Lastly, i <3 Lucy.

Ok bye.

Salam Jumaat semua!

2011-09-30T13:16:00.003+08:00

Helloooo everybody, happy Friday-ing!

Ok so i was walking under the sun on purpose just 10 mins ago (to get some Vit D).
I brought my arms out in an attempt to absorb more sun, and it reminded me how Timmo used to say that i was like a plant when i did that.
Cos unlike him who's all fair and typical cheena and dislikes the sun, i used to love sunlight so so much. Esp during our lunchtimes after spending half the day in the airconditioned labs.
He used to walk as fast as he could to the nearest shelter, just so he could avoid the sun.
Whereas i on the other hand, would be taking a stroll and enjoying the sun rays.
SO, he said i was like a plant.
Cos it was as if i was photosynthesis-ing!

Ok, so that was probably a science student thing.
Those who dont find it remotely funny, too bad then.

If i had a hashtag for my blog posts, this would probably fall under #memories.
Miss those internship moments; the lepak-ing in between esp at the staircases.

My man.

2011-09-29T11:52:00.001+08:00

I miss my man.
I really do.
I've never called him that before.
Sound abit weird, but ok too.

Just met him a few days back.
But i already miss him.
My man.
Hoho.
(insert kening naik2 emoji)

Stickwitu

2011-09-28T10:54:00.001+08:00

Listening to this right now.

Anyways, yesterday night after sch, when i was on my way home from the bus stop at my hse. I was crossing the road, or at least attempting to. I dont know whether i blanked out or i just happened to miss out on that red cab. But i almost got banged by it. The fact that i'm here writing this just shows that i didnt

Yeah lets just get to the main point shall we.

As i continued my walk home, i was imagining what would have happened if i did get into an accident. Dunnoe why i was being so melodramatic and all. But i was wondering who in this world would even be affected when i'm no longer here anymore. You know, like when i'm not alive anymore.

Would anyone be affected? Would there be anyone mourning me?

Or would life just go on as per normal as if nothing had happened.

Go fufu go!

2011-09-27T10:46:00.003+08:00

It's a little hard for me to absorb the fact that i've been taking my part time studies for a year.
I know a year may seem nothing compared to the total duration of 4 years, but hey i'm on my way there aren't i?
Studies aside, a lot of things has happened the past year.

It seems fast in a way, but it has been a tiring one year.
I wasnt studying the entire 12 months, had my break for 2 months, but still the past 8 months has been non-stop.
Subsequent years are gonna be more hectic, and i hope i'll pull through this.
I want that cert in my hands, dammit!
I want the mortarboard on my head and that gown on my shoulders.
I want it all, yes i do!

Sunday morning.

2011-09-25T11:08:00.001+08:00

Sunday morning and i'm awake already with no plans for the day.
I wished i was still sleeping and woke up when its past noon. So then at least, half of the day's gone.

The weekend has been crappy. I dunnoe whether its the hormones, or just plain me.
I'm feeling abandoned and alone.
So for the first time ever,
I cant wait for monday to come.

1302.

2011-09-18T13:03:00.001+08:00

I dont know what to think now.
I dont know what to believe anymore.

Gonna be a cengeng gerl.

2011-09-18T00:12:00.001+08:00

Everyone's so busy nowadays.
No one has time for me anymore.
Sigh.
:(

Post-its.

2011-09-14T10:36:00.001+08:00

Hi my 07 girl batchmates,
If anyone of u, Pink included, still reads Lena.
I still keep all the notes you girls flooded my locker door with before i left.
Each and every one of them.
Was just looking through them.
Miss you girls.
Hugs.

Bunga matahari love.

2011-09-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

You can never have too many.

I miss you so.

Rapporto.

2011-09-10T20:23:00.003+08:00

It is not meant for you to take over his life. Or for him to take over yours either.

Sure it gives both of you so-called 'rights' to know where she/he is every now and then. And take note that i said every now and then, and not every single time. Dont tell me you want to be informed even when he needs to go release himself or do his business?

Aren't relationships based on the idea of sharing? Him sharing a piece of his own life with you, and yours with him. It's a commitment. None of which has to be said out loud. Something simply expected of both sides of the couple. It does not mean that your life has to revolve around him or his around yours. You still have your own life, and him his. It is that time in between both your busy lives when you both put aside some time for each other.

That is the sweetness of it all.

Words of Wisdom.

2011-09-07T14:54:00.003+08:00

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

- Max Ehrmann

Blast from the Past.

2011-09-05T15:47:00.005+08:00

As cheesy as this song is,
"You can be the captain
And I can be your first mate,
You can be the hero
And I can be your sidekick,
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages."

1 Syawal 1432H

2011-08-31T16:13:00.003+08:00

My first day of Lebaran this year.
As usual, slow and sleepy morning. Enjoyed ibu's cooking; beef rendang, sambal udang, sambal goreng with my fav serunding and ketupat. Finished up malam raya's tidying of the house, susun kuih into containers, pretty up the curtains. Watch rerun of simfoni lebaran. Taufik! Hehehe. This year, my first time being all girly and vain for Raya. Fullest makeup i ever applied on myself. Hair curled. Bermaaf-maafan right after we were all dolled up. Snapped a few pics and the purple brigade departs for aunt's place.

Eat somemore there. Sambal sotong and kuah lodeh made their appearances. Again, as always. Interrogation from the uncles. About school/work/everything else under the sun. Whole squad left for nek long's after solat asar. This year, it was quieter there cos tok long has passed away. Atmosphere's just different. Subsequent houses were cik ahmad's and pak long's.

Same old same old. Similar routine each and every year.
But the familiarity of it all is somehow what we enjoy and look forward to every year.

p.s Amazing how i still get duit Raya in all, except for one hse yest ;)

Eid Mubarak everyone!

A Walk to Remember.

2011-08-29T11:22:00.001+08:00

“Our love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it”

Iloveyousyg <3

It's half-day today!

2011-08-26T11:49:00.004+08:00

Right now, i'm just passing some time on the comp while waiting for 1300h.
Get to leave work early cos of the election prep for tmr.
Too bad that i still have sch tonight, or i could have started my wkends already.
Oh well, nothing i can do about that.

Anyway, this morning as i was otw to work in the bus.
As usual i was listening to my iPh/iPod on shuffle, and this song started playing.
I usually have absolutely no reaction to the song, but today i did.
Weird huh.

So now, i'm tuning in to 89.7fm.
Enjoying the raya songs while my OSO argues with the other OSO.
Well, not really argue exactly.
They're both mad cos they just got assigned to additional duties during the Sept hols.
Quite unfair really.
Since its another OSO's job in the first place.
Stupid place with their stupid rules.

Dont they dare make me do other people's jobs.
Cant be bothered eh please.
I've got my own things to do, and since no one's helping me out with my work then why should i help you with yours?

Ok i'm gonna go to tumblr now.
Byee!
Oh, and salam advanced lebaran to us Muslims!

Sick and tired.

2011-08-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

I feel left out now.
Yay.

Today is skirt day.

2011-08-25T08:25:00.003+08:00

To my sissy who is taking her Prelims paper today, (probably right abt now)

All the bestest best for your SS paper today.
And for the rest of your papers on other days.
I dont recall ever waking up early to study.
But you did that today and i'm proud of you.

All the best little sister.

<3,
Along.

Fuanni's Life.

Dear God,

Would be perfect.

I am back.

Dont be sad.

Kernamu.

Realisation.

Salam Jumaat.

I know.

Of life.

Ironic.

Need. Beach.

Cos boy, you're the one that i want.

Well well well~

To you.

Diagnosed.

Not even you.

Byebye 2011.

Sigh.

Please.

It's Sunday, I'm in love.

Just because.

Hari Keduabelas.

Hari Kesebelas.

Hari Kesepuluh.

Hari Kesembilan.

Hari Kelapan.

Hari Ketujuh.

Hari Keenam.

Hari Kelima.

Hari Keempat.

Hari Ketiga.

Sigh.

Hari Kedua.

Hari Pertama.

Dictionary please.

You.

18 days leh..

Hi, I'm 21!

Thank you so much.

Puteri Negeri Cina

The big 2-1!

Pretty things in life.

Lalalalala~

What really happened?

Ouchie ouch.

GA.GA

Sad.

Crayfish.

Right next to you.

Confessions of a "Peng-gaji buta" (??)

Do you remember?

Hati ini.

Running.

Dear Lena.

True story.

Winkwink *__*

Love you Lena.

Help please.

Them, they and us.

Colours unite.

Rainy day rainy day.

Nak please.

Of us Sc people.

Pandora, i'm in lovee~

Rindu.

Be thankful.

Loser.

Sayang.

Vendredi oui!

Its's gonna be legen......wait for it....dary!

Paradise.

Missed.

Iwannagohomeplease.

Foo Fighters!

Stupid.

Stupidity.

Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit,

Friday~

Favourite!

Winkwink __